Overjoyed and Terrified

Sorry to keep you all waiting. I've been waiting to write this post till I talked to one of my friends who reads this blog in person, I wanted to tell her the news before she read it. My beta from 9dp5dt was 137 and beta #2 was 238, which the doctor said was an adequate increase. Apparently, even though people talk of doubling, the cut off is more like a 66% increase in 48 hours. I am a bit nervous with 74% increase, because I have seen other women doing IVF who have had their betas triples or quadruple in 48 hours, but I am trusting my doctors when they say everything looks good.

I am in shock that I got a positive beta. I never peed on anything and I fully intended to wait till I got home from work to listen to the message with K. However, about an hour after I gave my blood at the lab I got a page from Dr. D (we work in the same hospital) that said, "Congratulations Dee! I am sorry, I couldn't wait. -Dr. D," which sent my heart into my throat, so I logged into my record and saw my first beta number. So I called K right away and told him, since I didn't want him worrying the whole day when I already knew the outcome.

I am so thankful for all of your support through this process. I don't think I could have made it this far without your friendships, support, and guidance. I know things are still very early in this pregnancy, but I hope that everything will work out.

I am simultaneously overjoyed and terrified. I feel really attached to bean sprout (as we have been referring to him/her) and I don't want anything bad to happen to him/her. (I call bean sprout a her and K calls bean sprout a him). Every time I get a cramp or pain in my abdomen/pelvis I panic. I still look at the toilet paper every time I go pee, praying not to see blood. I am calling to schedule my 7 week ultrasound today and I pray that we will see a heartbeat. I am trying to stay calm and excited.