Monday, July 15, 2013

Could it be happening again?

My first beta was great on Friday at 142, but the second beta 72 hours later was only 318.  When I saw the number my heart dropped. I knew it hadn't risen enough. I'm terrified. Last time it rose at a similar rate and the pregnancy wasn't viable. I prayed that it would be obviously good, so that K and I could begin to embrace the pregnancy. It's hard not to compare numbers, but in the blog world most of the women I see get pregnant with IVF have doubling times of 30-48 hours... I was worried the clinic would say it was ok, when I didn't think it was, but the clinic called and left a message. My doctor is worried and wants to do an early ultrasound on the 25th. So, now I'm worried that they agree it is troubling. I came home from work and just broke down. Could we have gone through all of this again just to lose more babies?

9 comments:

  1. Praying for you! I'm so sorry that you are having to worry about this until the 25th.. I will be sending good thoughts your way.

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  2. Oh hun I'm so sorry. My fingers are crossed and I'm sending good thoughts your way. I hope that these babies are just a little slow and that everything will turn out well on the 25th. Keep your head up!

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  3. Sending you prayers. We're having issues too, our first and second were not in the normal doubling range from this second cycle. Our RE says anything between 31-72 is typically okay and even then if it goes over, it could be okay. I definitely understand the feelings behind this, especially when it has happened before (going through this right now, first ultrasound is Friday and I'm terrified). If you need anyone, I am here.

    Megan

    abrinkadventure.blogspot.com

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  4. I do hope that this is not happening again. I've been freaking out about my beta level being so low and I'm really, really nervous about tomorrow. I'll be thinking and praying for you...

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  5. Oh Dee, I am so sorry you have to go through this worry! I will keep hoping and praying that things turn out ok. Hang in there!

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  6. New Reader.

    I am so sorry and hopeful that you will get good news on the 25th. This stuff is so scary.

    Heidi
    infertile625
    hiddeninfertility.blogspot.com

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  7. I sorry you are going through this. I will keep you in my prayers that everything turns out ok.

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  8. Hi from ICLW...wishing you tons of luck on the 25th!!!

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  9. My heart breaks as I read this, as I've been in your shoes. It just seems like the worry never stops. I sincerely hope your "worry" turns into the good-natured worry of having a rambunctious toddler in your near future :) My prayers are with you for your next appointment!

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